Well, ladies and gents its day 3 and I must say THANK YOU LORD! As I read his word more and more I fill his presence ever stronger. It’s funny because right now I’m going through a little situation where I was involved with a man who wasn’t a bad guy but didn’t value me (if you know what I mean). Not the value as in put me before God but you know the “I RESPECT” you for being you type of value. Well, when I started this program I was burdened and troubled with some other things—a lot to do with self-worth. I just ended the unhealthy relationship I mentioned above, again, not because he was a bad person but because I was selling myself short. I allowed someone else to break the bond God & me shared (and he wasn’t the first)—so I guess in reality, it wasn’t the individual who caused the division but ME. For me to allow anything of that nature to happen the fault falls back on to me…people will only do to you what you allow. I say all that to share with you that I vowed to God that I wouldn’t speak with this individual for at least 40 days as a means to strengthen my relationship with my Father and improve me. What do you guess happened today? Yep, he calls! And he doesn’t just call, honey he texts & says that I’m being childish and I’m this & I’m that (nothing profane—just I’m not holding up to my end of the deal) then he says he misses me. You know what’s funny (and why I say I’m growing closer to God) is he called from unknown numbers & I heard a voice saying don’t answer and sure enough I received a text from the unknown number revealing it was the very guy I am not to speak with. I know some of you are reading thinking this is childish but I’m telling you it’s bigger than me or being petty. Like the passages in John & Romans 2: 28-29 I’ve learned that nothing and NO ONE is worth sacrificing my connection with God and if that means isolating myself from others so I can identify and hear his call then hey…consider it DONE! I know that was long winded & I still haven’t shared what I ate for the day but I just had to share with the believers and non-believers—GOD IS REAL YALL! The devil tried to tempt me (heck for a minute I thought he was gone succeed cause I started questioning myself) but I assure you that I called on my father and asked for strength and its like this will power came over me & I did just what I told him I would. Again, because of my obedience & belief, I can go to him and ask him for what I want & baybee let me tell ya it’s MINE! ALL MINE! Lol what he made for me You can’t have (but he has something in store with your name written all over it—don’t miss out)!
Ok ok ok...moving on to what we all came here to see….my progress. Well, here’s the real deal Holyfield lol I am struggling with the whole working out thing. It’s like I want to see the results but not do the work—we all know that’s not going to work. I meet with Lyle tomorrow & I have to let him know I didn’t do the 15 minute run for the day. I know when it’s all said & done I’m hurting me but if anyone has any suggestions HELP! LOL It’s crazy because I’ve prayed on this & I know it’s time but I keep playing myself.
So, how did I hold up in my daily diet….hmmmmmm let’s say it was better but not the best. For breakfast I had a bowl of raisin bran cereal (I love that cereal if you can’t tell already lol), a salad for lunch a small bag of sour cream & onion chips for a snack and canned ravioli for dinner. I’m getting there guys, it’s just day 3 but I’m well on my way! It must be the season for change because now I am embracing ME and like Mary Mary I want people to look at me and see the GOD IN ME!
~Beauty Undefined~
Hang in there. Feel the love. My sister had a similar situation. She told me just today that it has been a year. I empathize. I also say a little prayer for you.
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